My Life Rambles

Oh Boy!! I'm having a sinful scoop on the Cheez Choc from Secret Recipe now and I'm so lost with my diet thingy. Gosh!! I'm sure my dietitians gonna freak me out when they check my food diary. The heck with that for tonite. Surely,tonite I'm going to have my sinful pleasure and enjoy the scrumptious cheese cake from heaven. hahaha....I know, I'm going to regret this tomorrow.All those hard work of reducing the kgs are a waste with 3 slices of cheesecakes.hehehe... The heck with it. I'll mourn for tomorrow.

Anyway, I'm so happy these days. Somehow I have found my inner youth back though things didn't go pretty well lately. It's been a long time that I last have a really good time despite of being like an old mid crisis lady these 4-5 years. Sheesh!! I feel like I was back in college having fun and It felt so light and easy. I hope it'll last long coz I've had enough with the serious side of me. Better still, I finally had the courage of being alone, not caring if  I have a company or not. I do love a company, but if it takes for me to be alone and still enjoy with my ownself, why not?!!. I used to be too shy to go alone anywhere and always preferred a company or more to eat or go shopping , watching movies and going for a workout otherwise, I'll just get home and canceled any plans. Honestly,  doing so gives  me stresses for making schedules with friends and getting undecisive decisions is so painstaking to take in. So  for the past week, I just couldn't care. I workout alone, have gone eating alone in the restaurants ( which is a rare for bruneians , i tell you) and almost went to the movies alone. Almost? yeah, the only time I wanted to watch alone have been cancelled due to unexplainable situation...hehe..but that won't stop me from doing it again in the future. And I intend to do it anyway.

So life is much more simpler now, any friends who wants to join are very much welcome but I won't be bothered if they have excuses especially last minute ones to canceled out cause its their lost while I can still enjoy myself with whatever I planned on doing. Subconsciously, it's been a positive attitude that I am proud of. I want to be the independent successful woman  and I have achieved one part of it. Cause I've never been a very confident person. Worst is in socializing. I hate making conversations with new people cause really, I just don't know how. and that'll be a different story to tell.

So its almost midnite now, I guess I should start to relax myself to sleep. Tomorrow's going to be a big day and I hope i won't be slacking over with my work and everything else. so till then.......sweet dreams to ya all.

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Banned!!

Was about to watched a movie today after work and was all excited as i love a Love comedy story. My Bestfriend's Girl was on in the theatres, so a friend of mine and my sister agreed to go ahead and wanted a laugh out of it. It's not a new movie but since i haven't watched it and it shows now in the cinemas so why not, right?!!

Unfortunately, when we arrived at the cinema, we were told that it was banned ...yes.... BANNED!!! and it was a last minute banned!! I can't believe it..it's the 2nd time I've experienced this situation. Come on guys, if you want to screen the movies do it before publishing to the world that it will be shown in the cinemas. Don't give people hopes coz we do have other plans if there's nothing much to watch there. Censorship should be done way earlier before letting those movies out for show programmes, not last minute!!!

Okay, i don't normally complain like this...it must be the hormones in me but really.... I was disappointed. I know i can just get a dvd and watch it at home, but as a movie lover who loves to be emotionally concentrated and connected to the movie that provides huge screens and a blasting surround sound effect to satisfy the self orgasm of a movieholic....I still wanted to see them in the cinemas. The feel and the satisfaction is wayyyy better than watching at home even if you have your own home theatre in the bedroom!

Anyway, Sorry for my ramblings...hahaha....just letting it out and aaahhh it feels good then. Oh, i did buy the DVD to overcome my frustration.I'm not sure its a good movie or not but that's not the point anyway. Gonna watch it later so reviews will be done tomorrow...if i remember that is heheehe...

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Madamoiselle: P**s**D

Dear You,

These few days, this is what we all have been doing / feeling :

P -Partly
I - Ignoring
S - Some
S - Sick
E - Ego
D - Discriminators

I'm being irrational. Haven't been like this for a long time. You took our smile away and you are definitely enjoying it. Excruciating? Yes, We admit. It is painful. But We'll make sure you're not in your comfort zone either.

Thank you for trying to exist in our life. Thank you for your "Greatness" you have in yourselves. Thank you for being there when you're very much NOT needed. Thank you for colouring our world, another shades of gray.

Sarcasms? You have been our great icons. You thought us well. Some of us are learning our best to outdo you with your skills. Bear with us, We'll get better soon, Sifus.

So dear you, you or you, Take your time, you've thought you had found 'Glory'. Go ahead, show your prides, boost your egos, We can't be 'killed' with the tiny d*** you can only have!

This dedication goes out to all who thought that this could be for you hehehehe.... :p

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Madamosielle & my holi-Day 2

I just woke up from my 'beauty-nap' and I'm feeling whooaaahhh....tired! It's almost 6pm now and I'm thinking of making something edible afterwards.

This morning, I was awoken by a knock at the door and it was only Nine! Hey, for someone on a holiday, that was an early time to wake up! Especially when I was having late night sleeps. Anyway, Mom told me to get ready to go to the hospital coz granny was having her 'endoscopy' or something today. Waa!! I thought it was not confirmed so I thought we will be visiting her in the afternoon and so I thought I had other plans for today. Too much thoughts there..Sigh! So off we went to the hospital and granny was already in the O.T as we were a wee bit late. The rest of my uncles and aunts were at the hospital's canteen having tea and we joined them since it may take time for granny to be out of the O.T. I ate breakfast there...sooo, so hungry.

At almost midday, Grans was done and was sent to the ward. She was still unconscious. Everyone got hungry by noon and we had lunch at "Aminah Arif Restaurant" and had "Ambuyats'. Sorry no pics though... was too busy stuffing food to the tummy..hahaha.. It was fun having lunch with a quarter of dad's siblings. It's not always we sit down having lunch together this lot.

After lunch, we all headed back to the hospital and waited for granny to wake up. She finally did at around 2-ish and by then, i was already sleepy and tired. You know how it is in hospitals. Limited seats, nothing to see, a long wait thus becomes tired.

And oh, I met my ol' mutual fren again. I finally had the opportunity to talk with her. And i finally, asked what's with her bandage thingy. She had a small mishap in her house and had slit her veins [on the hand] by a glass accidentally. Eeuwghh!! I was freaking shocked with that. Her veins were "stapled" [what? not stitched? errr... what do you mean by "staple"??] as she had told me and she couldn't move her fingers to her elbow. That is scary..veins cut off ...waaaaa!!!! It's been a month and she haven't recovered... uh..Scarryyy!

By the way, today is my niece's Birthday...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERRA!!

Boy! She's not a kid anymore... nine yrs old and i still think she's still 5 hahaha..they sure grew so fast. Anytime, she'll be a teenage then. Her mommy wants to celebrate her birthday belatedly on this Thursday night. I 've already made plans to have another cake baking project. Haven't decided much on how the cake is going to be. They say she likes Blue but i wanted to make a different colour..Red! Why??? coz I wanted to make a heart shape cake and it's nice if i colour it red. A red-hearty cake. I don't want to make another blue cake coz i did that already. Well, we'll see...how it'll goes. I'll sure to post it here when I'm done.

In the meantime, I need to go to the kitchen. There's something in mind that i wanted to make tonight. Another first try recipe i wanted to experiment on. Hope it's gonna be what it supposed to be.

Till then, It's 20 more days of work-hiatus.. I'm off to the kitchen!!

**Edited on 13th Dec 2007**

Gosh! I'm a terrible aunt. Erra was not turning 9 but 11 instead. How cud i miss that. She's 11 yrs old already and i tot she was turning 9. hahha..See! I still see her that small of a kid! My other niece was the one who's 9 yrs old. Goodness me... I just have 4 nieces so far yet couldn't keep track of their ages. I wonder if I can't remember my own kids age one day...that's a nightmare. Bad mommy!! bad, bad mommy!! :0

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Madamoiselle & my Holi-Day 1.

My first day of holiday....at home.. yipee!! Finally, I am off from work till new year. Suka ku eh! This is my first time ever taking a really long break and I'm somewhere in the clouds already ..hahaha. Nope! no plans of going anywhere, just stay at home and have my own leisure time. In my dreams...well, my worries came to reality... i was already booked by my parents with their schedules. Everytime i had a break, they already had plans and tagged me along. Waaaaa!!! Hope they won't drag me the whole three weeks. I really need my own time to unwind.

Anyway, What have i spend on my 1st day of 'work-freedom'?

First thing in mind was to wake up late! But I was too conscious. Since the maids had gone back to their homeland last two weeks, I was super duper conscious of the house chores that needs to be done. I don't wanna be labeled the princess of the house and get mocked by my own parents so I somehow, woke up at 9am and did my laundry {whoaahh!!} . My room was a mess, but I'll leave it for tomorrow. I voluntarily cooked for lunch and glad my parents liked 'em. { They are picky with food...very hard to please}. Then afternoon, mom tagged me along for window shopping but end up, me, shopping for my baking utensils. A craze i had lately since my love for bake and cook. I had $50 flew of my pocket for that. Then pick up dad at his office and had high tea at 'Aneka Rasa Restaurant' for "Cakoi" and "Keropok Lekor"..nyum..nyum!! Then, went to the hospital to visit my granny and met an ol' mutual friend from high school. She looked the same, haven't changed much except for the bandage she had on her hand. *lol.* Didn't even asked her why, just smiled coz i was freakin' shy..hahaha... duh! Back at home, I finally had my time... surfing the net...blog hopping and now blogging my way. Dull... yeah?

Time flies and i have 21 days of work-related-hiatus. hehe.. Till then, will try to update my boring life tomorrow.

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Madamoiselle & a Friday chores

It’s Laundry day today. Spin and tumbledry, checked! Make sure weather is hot, checked! Pegged to clothesline, checked! Make sure sweet smell of scented laundry fills the air, checked! Phew! Glad that’s over. I just don’t like doing laundries. It took hours for me to finished the chore and I know, I’m slacking when it comes to that.

Once that was over, I had the urge to have a baking session. So I went online for a quick recipe search for cupcakes, which I’ve been meaning to do for almost a week, and found a simply good looking cupcake. I know it’s a simple recipe but I’ve just started to develop an interest to cook and bake two months back and wanted to try to be a self taught chef. Who knows I might be good someday. *I wish*.

Anyhow, made two lovely batches of vanilla cupcakes with light blue butter-cream frosting and chocolate almond topping. Actually, I intended to make just the blue frosting but hadn’t had enough of icing so I had to find an alternative and found a chocolate bar and some chopped almonds in the fridge. And Wa-lah, a chocolate almond cupcake. As for the butter-cream cupcakes, I didn’t have perfect swirls for it but I do love the taste of the soft creamy texture and it’s not too sweet either. Gonna bring them to the office tomorrow and see how they’re gonna like it. :p

My tray of Blue frosting and Chocolate Almond Vanilla Cupcakes.

Edited on 17/11/2007 :: Yey! A success for my cupcakes despite of its unprofessional presentation. Glad my friends liked it and all were gone in their tummies. It’s my 2^nd attempt, and it’s an 85% to having a real good cupcake. All I need is more practice and some adjustments for the next session.::

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